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Anyway.. i had a great christmas with my friends, canoiest. hehs.

and it was successful all thanks to cheng xun and his family! =) they were definitely great host! hehs.

moreover, i didn't expect so many of them to come and celebrate christmas together. sob.
that's something to be happy about. =') i thought everything would went wrong with me planning everything. =x but it sure seems to have quite a few miscommunication here and there.. >_<

Thank God for the great christmas and the great friends he had blessed me with! =D
i'm sure everyone had fun. felt really glad to see them so happy playing the games that we organised.. hehs.

it's been a long time since i had such a great Christmas.. =)

may the Lord continue to show me the way..

God bless..

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at times i really hate myself. i don't why i have become so impatient.. so short tempered towards my family.. =x thinking back. i'm such a bad girl towards my family. why do i have sure bad attitude towards them? shouldnt i be more loving, more helpful, more patient with them? =(((
i wonder.... i'm sorry mum. i'm repenting right now..

God pls grant me the strength.. peace and love in all areas of my life.. especially in area of family.. Thank you.

dear is finally back. but too bad he's sick so i cant get to meet him. =x

=( really hope to see him... just miss him so much..

seems that i have been experiencing quite a no. of things these days. billy going overseas.. now he's sick. =( had a conflict with one of my friend who used to be my good friend. but not anymore now, don't think i can accept her as my good pal anymore.. probably just friend but definitely not more than good pals. hais. sad to say that but i just don't wanna do any unnecessary things to harm myself. =x
right now.. i just wanna clear my debts!!! =XxX
money really worsen relationship between people. that's the scariest thing i ever experienced it myself.

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hais. really hate myself. i wanna earn lots of money but I just dislike working. =X probably it's because i have yet to find a job that i really like. i like banquet yet i dislike the environment. =(
God, teach me mould me to become stronger and hardworking. i really hope that i could become more independent.. but i'm already so use to being dependent its really hard for me to be independent... who can understand my inner voice crying out loud for help..?

somehow i feel kinda bad. if she hadn't been that mean to me and not even apologizing to all her wrong doing, i would have forgive and forget and continue being a good friend of hers.
and as i said if she did apologize, too bad she didn't and I somehow have to suffer. =x
i'm so like a hypocrite! and i really hate feeling that. i dunno if i'm too good or what. already told myself to cut off all ties with her. yet i still respond her when she talks to me. it seems like i have let it go since i'm not angry with her, but in my inner heart i still can't accept what she did to me so how can i once again accept her as my good friend? ahhhh.. *i'm going crazy!*
God, pls show me the way...

sometimes i wonder.. am i really very irritating in terms of relationship? why am i so sticky? i wonder.. =xxx

i just hope i would be stronger with God empowering me. =)

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sob sob. guess i have nothing better to do to be missing billy's brothers. =p

had a great time with them last night. hehs.

really feel like it's already holiday now.. >_<


found out many bad points of dear dear throughout this month that we have been together..

everything have their good and bad points.

just thank God that he persuaded me to accept dear dear as who he is..
liking everything about him whether its good or bad. =)

i'm a dependent girl!!! and i hate being that.. but that's a fact that i can't change instantly. =X

just pray that dear dear will try to understand me better..

lalala~

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how i yearn to be that holy and angelic one..

but it seems so far yet near. yea i know it's kinda contradicting.


all i know right now is.. i feel so blessed now! =)

should be contented with my life now.

thank God for everything! ^^

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weeeee...

Happy 5th Month Anniversary!!! ^^

time definitely seems to pass really fast without us noticing it...

i cherish every moments i had with you.

and i thank God for blessing me with such a great dear.. =)

love you loads, dear dear! >_<