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Life is tiring these days.
i'm afraid i would fall sick having so many things to do these days.. =x

Study, FYP project, Work, Friends, and him.. not much time left with family.. =Z

still having the thought of letting go..

nowadays keep on seeing couples being so lovey dovey, and i jus ponder why can't we still be that loving? i have ever become so insignificant to you..
just ytd you said have or without doesn't make much difference to me but to me it does..
it sounds like you are indispensable to me.. i think likewise..

fyp; i'm gonna get it done in 3 weeks time! now we are still half way thru.. =XXX

work; i got to work at least 22hrs a week.. no more weekends to have fun.. no time to attend church service.. =X

friends & family; bugging me to spare more time for them..

these are the three main concerns for me now.. i need encouragement! definitely not scolding or any demoralizations! cause those negative things doesnt work on me. it will jus makes me feel worst.. Thanks in advance!

P.S. xiao yuan stop bullying me and calling me boon keng. it sound so bad.
P.S. idiotic keith stop disturbing me with ur nonsense theory.
P.S. Shi Qi Jia You!!!
P.S. God pls be graceful to me.. =x God bless..

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had a sicky day ytd.. was down with fever.. =x

today felt better but it seems like my body keep on having prob.. zzzz.. tummy ache..

hmm.. was really piss off by someone today! arrgh.. it's like that person my friend is taking me for granted? treating me like stupid? arrgh the more i work with "", the more i detest "".. =Z
i really hope i can just dsjnfjsndfk "" out! God bless.. may "" get what "" deserved!
i have been so much grace yet the more grace i give the more stupid i feel "" is treating me..

kevin mentioned who wants dog to my grp.. when i have decided that i want it.. he didnt even intend to give it to me.. wth? i was like forget it then.. and he was like giving me stupid excuses why he don't want to give it me to? saying i was irresponsible etc.. ZzZz.. whatever k? i can get it myself.. no big deal.
just volunteer to take care of it but u rejected it.. fine!

work was as tiring as usual..
getting tease by my colleague laudren of my name.. arrgh.. lol..
thank God he didnt release me too late.. was afraid i have to end up taking cab home..

anyway i'm so d*** pissed off by someone! arrgh.. "" jus sucks..

though i had a bad day.. but in between still had some enjoyable time..

Rina, Me & Half of Shiqi. lolx




My cute little flappy! =p

The day before..

Isabel, Ronald & Uncle.. =) See the big and juicy rib?

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oh man.. i jus happened to find this song which i'm looking for.. this best explains what i'm feeling and trying to tell you... =)

Only Love..
2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

Chorus
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

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Chen Wei Lian - I Love You

i love you
所以只能说声对不起
任何藉口都没有

i love you
已来不及好好去珍惜
后悔很多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
像你离得无反顾

你身上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问已无法
原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

i love you
对你的挚爱从不曾改变
要你快乐

i love you
好想对你说却来不及
后悔已太多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
是挽不回的错误

你心上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有过
远比失去痛苦

我身上永远烙着你的笑
那么绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有过
还比失去痛苦

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dear Lord.. i'm sorry.. i will keep to my promise.. just give me time..

right now.. all i need is time..

i thought it was all fated for it to happened..
if i didnt accept you and love you we wouldn't have walk till so far..
if i didnt accept you.. we wouldnt even be friends now not to even think about having future..
to me i accept it as fate being with you.. i accepted it..
maybe that's why i can't bear to let go..
all jus happens for a reason..

in the past i always wonder why i would accept you.. and surprisingly to be loving you so..
i guess my friends are surprised too.. cause in the past you are just not the type i would accept and not to even say being so in love with you..
surprisingly everything just seems to go according to your plan..
i trying to accept your goodness towards me..
telling myself you would be good to me.. no worries.. i shouldnt let you down..
end up i put too much of my heart into it..
just want you to know.. i love you that's why i'm with you..
saranghae..

sometimes i thought the pain i'm receiving is because God is punishing me..
silly thoughts huh? but who knows..?

minds filled with confusions.. puzzled why this and that happen..
in search of reasons why all these is happening to me..
i get to learn that loving someone is tiring too..
ZzZz..

refreshing all the good times may jus take away my pain perhaps..

p.s. thanks MY for being there for me.. =')