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dream after dream.. she had been appearing in it.
and i still remember vividly that I hugged her tight when i get to see her in one of my dream.
i was really happy though it was just a dream.
it was as if my wish came true.
finally able to hug her once again.

i still misses her so much..
tears just kept on flowing out..
filled with so much regrets..
so much so much that no one would ever understands.

she had taught me so much stuff..
helping me whenever i needed help..
be it a listening ear or financial needs..
she nvr fails to be there for me..
but i didn't even get the chance to repay her..
it's so unfair.. so so unfair..
='(

but still i thank God for being gracious with her..
i know right now she doesn't have to endure all those pains that she's been suffering with..

i just blame myself for not acknowledging that it was not by pure luck that she survive that operation..
it was a second chance for her and for us.
but yet we were so naive, not cherishing it.
whatsoever. i know it's over.
but one thing for sure..
she would forever be in my <3.. forever.




P.S. Hope i get the job!!!